Thursday, November 28, 2013

On this thanks-filled day...

For the past few years I've been participating in the month of thanks posts on Facebook. But this year I didn't. I wasn't trying to take a stand or rebel. And it's not for a lack of gratitude. I'm not sure why I didn't participate this year, I just didn't. But this year, I think I feel more gratitude than I have when I did participate in the posts. This year I feel different. This year I feel content. A deep contentment that sinks down into the marrow of your bones and settles soothingly into the crevices of your soul. 

At first I wasn't sure where this contentment was coming from. But after more deep thinking and soul searching I think I understand. This year I survived a car wreck that could have been so much worse than it actually was. I always knew how quickly life could change, but knowing how quickly my children could be left without a mother reminded me of how lucky I am for each day with them. I couldn't control anything with the car wreck, but I am thankful for the things I can't control. They reminded me of how much I should be grateful for each and every thing because it can be gone so quickly. 

This year we took another precious baby into our family. It was chaotic and hectic and definitely require a lot of juggling, patience and lots and lots of prayer. But having Luke as part of our family makes us more complete. I can't control how other people live their lives, but I am thankful for the things I can't control. They remind me that I should be grateful for the family that raised me, and the family of my own that I now have. 

Also, this year, with Luke we discovered he was blind. Most of the time I stay positive about how he is still going to live a great life with his blindness. But every now and then I tear up thinking about the things he won't get to see. I just have to remind myself that he will see and experience things, just differently. I can't control Luke's blindness, but I am thankful for the things I can't control. They remind me that I am blessed to be able to see for Luke, and even more blessed that I get to be his Momma and let him teach me how he sees. 

It may seem strange to be thankful for all of these things that I can't control. But each of these things teach me so much about life and myself. And each of these experiences has reminded me to be grateful for so many things in my life. And even though I haven't posted every day in November about those things I'm grateful for, I am still very grateful for them. And this overwhelming gratitude has brought with it such deep contentment, that I am over-flowing with thanksgiving. 

So today, and throughout the end of this year and beginning of next, I wish you the ability to see good in the things you can't control, let them remind you of all the things to be grateful for, and for you to have deep-rooted contentment in your soul. 

Happy Thanksgiving to you all!



1 comment:

  1. What a great perspective and so profound! Luke is such a fortunate little fella to have a Momma that doesn't view his disability as a handicap. Blessings to you my dear!


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